'HER'

Too bored in home

so I gonna write my story about her

This story was started when I was form 1

her sun shine smile was attracted me

but that time she have bf already

so cant do anything

chased her

in fact

I have a little shy

just can chat with her through sent message

by the way

until now i also don't remember how I get her cell phone number

but I remember I playing chase with my friends in front of her

so childish when I thought back what I done

After 1 year

our relation had improved

we had talked to each other face to face

although just a 'Hi'

after that

I start doing research about her

found out

she was same church with me

that was great news for me

but she less coming our church youth

I can talked more with her through this topic

invite her come our youth every saturday

when she presence

oh yeah...

when she absence

quite a bit sad and disappointed

BUT

going church is praise god

most important is my best friend---JESUS

not a GIRL...

She was bigger than me 1 year

therefore she was form 3

she need examinated PMR

cant chat with her sometime

a little sad sad

I had pray to GOD

gave her a healthy body n clever

My turn to examinated PMR

I heard that her bf did not continued studied at here

also broke up

it was time to taken her down

since

her classroom was opposite to my classroom

I could saw her when she went to toilet

at the mean time

I also went to toilet

so that could saw her

and had a short conversation

I tried many to told her

but failed

may be shy

or not enough mature

or not enough clever

or not enough handsome and smart

or not....

Haiz...

However

she started active in church activities

every week of youth and service

she had attended

therefore

she had chosen to dancing during youth christmas celebration

included me

unfortunate

we dancing different kind of dance

I danced robot dance

she danced ballroom dance

oh man...

how could it be??

she danced with guy

touched body

what could I do?

just give support

I remember I had joined every her dance practice

just one two week only

how stupid I am

hadn't be my girlfriend

I started jealous and sad

I were in science class after my examination PMR

I though she loved me

unlucky she not

and she have new boyfriend

same as me

studied at science class

also parliament of head in school

also was an athlete of school

he taught her additional mathematic

she was a flower of school

therefore

had a big news on our school

either students or teachers also knowing it

when they were coupled

but for me were a bad news

what could I do again?

I wish them together forever and ever

as my last message to her

also less talked with her face to face

to reduce my heart pain

to forget her

Last year in school

didn't remember how we started contact again

facebook message or phone text?

not remembered it clear

just remembered she broke up with her boy friend

didn't asked detail about that

I decided to put it down and be normal friend with her

but I failed

I started love her again

this time more deeper than I thought

I started improve myself to achieve same standard with her

after a couple of month

I had a lot of confident and faith

because I changed a lot

more mature than before

more gentle than before

more clever than before

so I decided to told her that I love her after exam my SPM

Yeah........

finally finished my examination

but still not the right time

everybody busied practice

especially her

she joined a lot of dance during christmas

so I changed my plan

after christmas then told her

but my friend told that her had new admire boy

starting I don't believed it

my another friend said that they just normal friend

Unfortunate

that was a true

after my analysis

she talked to her admire boy

different to other people

no matter how she sad or angry

when the guy talked to her

she will used sun shine smile to talked back

Haiz...

how could it happened again~?

it is me not enough mature?

not enough gentle?

not enough funny?

not enough clever?

not enough handsome?

this time more pain more sad more disappointed

so hardworking I am to changing my attitude

at the end

still lose to a guy

either heart pain or heart broke

I just knowing that gonna put her down again

I prayed to GOD

give me strength to pass through it

She will never know it

I learned to play a magic cube for her

I improved my basketball for her

I changed my worse attitude for her

but it is not the most important

most important is they love each other forever and ever

until them meet at heaven

so I doing the same thing

sent my last message to her

telling her can find a good boy friend

now she haven't reply yet

maybe too busy no time to see

or saw it but don't reply

but she almost appear in my whole secondary school life

When I write this story

quite miss it

miss those feel

miss those staff we do together

finally I done my story about 'her'

used a lot of time to write it

but not all the detail I wrote out

it is too many things to write

I just write what I remember

but she almost appear in my whole secondary school life

if she didn't appear in my secondary school life

will I more mature

will I more gentle

only GOD know it

thanks GOD teaching me through this huge problem

I learned a lot of things~

very a lot of things

Lastly I have a song to recognize

I listen this song when I was writing this story

hope you like it

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